i can't just stay in this group

i'm bored out of my mind it's not enough activity

i'm sorry :-(((

but it's not what i really desire...

i want you to come back and we use our bodies together

and i don't want you coming back all for fun and laughs

this isn't funny

that's not how it started for me, and that's not what's meaningful about it for me

i came on the computer because i was in so much pain about l&t and desperately trying to reconcile what you were saying to and about me which was all contradictory

i was mad out of my mind and self-medicating and everything

nobody could have helped me

no fucking talk therapy or anything can cure that

i want to KILL people like that, like that woman trying to protect YOU who thought she knew what was BEST for me like the general in the movie the general's daughter if you don't know what i am talking about watch the fucking movie

i never knew it was possible to be so mentally ill the only thing i can do is manage it with meds, although i KNOW i could be so much healthier if i exercised, but i am in such a quandary because it is so hard to manage my mania as it emerges....i must
be SO CAREFUL, nobody else but me is qualified to handle this (my body).

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On Saturday, July 23, 2022 at 10:24:05 AM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:

i can't just stay in this group

i'm bored out of my mind it's not enough activity

i'm sorry :-(((

but it's not what i really desire...

i want you to come back and we use our bodies together

and i don't want you coming back all for fun and laughs

this isn't funny

that's not how it started for me, and that's not what's meaningful about it for me

i came on the computer because i was in so much pain about l&t and desperately trying to reconcile what you were saying to and about me which was all contradictory

i was mad out of my mind and self-medicating and everything

nobody could have helped me

no fucking talk therapy or anything can cure that

i want to KILL people like that, like that woman trying to protect YOU who thought she knew what was BEST for me like the general in the movie the general's daughter if you don't know what i am talking about watch the fucking movie

i never knew it was possible to be so mentally ill the only thing i can do is manage it with meds, although i KNOW i could be so much healthier if i exercised, but i am in such a quandary because it is so hard to manage my mania as it emerges....i must

be SO CAREFUL, nobody else but me is qualified to handle this (my body).

things are going well with my doctor who gives me meds, so that's good. i don't know how we did it, how we got here, but we're communicating better. not 100%, but pretty good. (but not pretty pretty pretty good, i have to get up and do something else,
sitting here is just killing me, my body can't stand it anymore, not that anyone cares thanks a lot bob, we could be so healthy together)

like i want to be happy without you with other people after you did that to me. disgusting.

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screaming at my tv when i heard about s.c opening for you, "DID YOU FUCK HER, TOO!?!?!??! DID YOU FUCK HER, TOO!?!?!?!?!?" and that was nothing.

now it's my turn to say, and not so passively, don't know if i saw you, if i would kiss you or FUCKING KILL YOU. (like you said to me, they used that quote in the movie casino, with de niro and sharon stone, came out around same time)

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On Saturday, July 23, 2022 at 10:24:05 AM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:

i can't just stay in this group

i'm bored out of my mind it's not enough activity

i'm sorry :-(((

but it's not what i really desire...

i want you to come back and we use our bodies together

and i don't want you coming back all for fun and laughs

this isn't funny

that's not how it started for me, and that's not what's meaningful about it for me

i came on the computer because i was in so much pain about l&t and desperately trying to reconcile what you were saying to and about me which was all contradictory

i was mad out of my mind and self-medicating and everything

nobody could have helped me

no fucking talk therapy or anything can cure that

i want to KILL people like that, like that woman trying to protect YOU who thought she knew what was BEST for me like the general in the movie the general's daughter if you don't know what i am talking about watch the fucking movie

i never knew it was possible to be so mentally ill the only thing i can do is manage it with meds, although i KNOW i could be so much healthier if i exercised, but i am in such a quandary because it is so hard to manage my mania as it emerges....i must

be SO CAREFUL, nobody else but me is qualified to handle this (my body).

i spent every babbling moment in the car driving around with paul for the few months going around with him after two years in total trapped isolated hell (no more round-the-clock bulimia and tv to comfort me had to find something else, including having
been poisoned by the meth i tried in july '94, then later, meth hell, some of it was good, starting may '95 until parents threw me in jail, nice huh, never heard of f*cking REHAB?!!??!?) telling him how you used me.

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cheesetray wrote:

ms. prune the terror

you're a loony twat

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% wrote:

% wrote:

cheesetray wrote:

ms. prune the terror
;

you're a loony twat

[email protected]

want me to send you a penpal e-mail

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ooO Ooo


http://tinyurl.com/peescent

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On 7/11/2024 2:05 PM, % wrote:

% wrote:

% wrote:

% wrote:

cheesetray wrote:

ms. prune the terror
;

you're a loony twat

[email protected]

want me to send you a penpal e-mail
;
;

      _                         _
     |_|                       |_|
     | |         /^^^\         | |
    _| |_      (| "o" |)      _| |_
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                ooO Ooo


http://tinyurl.com/peescent

hi gerk

I think the Gerk wants some % action.

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